Guys

Okay so i recently got in touch with my ex-boyfriend. We were on and off again until he moved away in middle school. Now he goes to school close to me and we still have a lot in common right. The problem the same thing that kept me making things off-again. I'm scared of relationships. He doesn't get that though. I'll write more later about it. GTG parent alert!!

So the blogs that should be on my list...

So there's no blogs on my list. The reason... no i'm not ashamed. Some people that i don't want to read this could get on those blogs and then it wouldn't take long for them to figure out that hey I have a blog. Then voila my little way of venting and getting out some stuff without them knowing would be gone. So therefore the blogs that should be on the list are: I.M.P.A.C.T and God is The Way. They are really good. You should give them a try.

So if you've been following the blogs on my list you've heard about the crash. The one with Chris. His brother Matthew happens to be married to my sister. I spend more time talking and enjoying life with them then i do anywhere else and it hurts to know that they're hurting right now. I don't know how to fix their hurt either. I've prayed to God and i've asked others to pray for them but it doesn't seem to be comforting them at all. I mean come on his brother is sitting in the hospital bed in the ICU. Nobody knows what to do. How can anybody fix this? How can anybody help?

Me and my blog

So i just spent time reading my two favorite blogs the one my preacher writes and the one my friend writes. A lot of you probably wonder how in the world i got the idea to write about the stuff i've been writing about if all they write about is getting closer to God. I know that getting closer to God is an important thing to do but to tell the truth i'm not really as good as them at spending my time coming up with genius things to tell people that will make the light bulb go off. I can reply to some things and make people think but around them half the time i just feel simply inadaquate like what's God going to think when i have to stand beside these two in front of him and he asks why didn't you reach as many people as they did? It's not that i don't try it's that my brain doesn't work like that i figure the Ah-ha moments i have with God are just between me and God. They simply feel personal to me.

Just Me.

So it's Mary. I guess this could be kind of like a diary. Nobody knows I'm starting it and i don't really plan on telling very many people if any. I could leave it all alone and just finally have someplace to leave everything. Talk about the 21st century. Well Chris is in the hospital he had a serious wreck this morning. He's in ICU and they aren't sure how bad he is. He's better then he was this morning though. I'm praying that everything turns out alright and if anybody does turn out to be reading this send a prayer up yourself please.