Under Control

Went back home again
This sucks gotta pack up and leave again
Say goodbye to all my friends
Can't say when I'll be there again
It's time now to turn around
Turn my back on everything
Turn my back on everything...

Everything's changing when I turn around
All out of my control, I'm a mobile
Everything's changing when I turn around
All out of my control, I'm a mobile


mmm...yeahh

Start back at this life
Stretch myself back into the vibe
I'm waking up to say I've tried
Instead of waking up to another T.V. Guide
It's time now to turn around
Turn and walk on this crazy ground
Oh, oh


Everything's changing when I turn around
All out of my control, I'm a mobile
Everything's changing Out of what I know
everywhere I go, I'm a mobile


Yeah, everywhere I go I'm a mobile

Hanging from the ceiling
Life's a mobile
Spinning 'round with mixed feelings
Crazy and wild
Sometimes I wanna scream out loud...

Everything's changing
Everywhere I go
Out of what I know...

Everything's changing
Everywhere I go
Out of what I know
Yeah, yeah, yeah

La, la, la, la, la, la, la la la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la la la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la la la
La, la, la, la, la, la

Everything's changing
When I turn around
All out of my control, I'm a mobile

Everything's changing
Out of what I know
Everywhere I go, I'm a mobile
Everywhere I go, I'm a mobile
- Mobile by Avril Lavigne

Sometimes i think i understand that song. Life's out of control most of the time. Just as fast as i get it under control it gets out of control. I thought for just an hour i had everything under control without any drama. I'd gone off on T.P and i was hanging out with M.A.W and B.N and B.H and R.B and even A.J.W but then curfew hit and i came back to the room...

At first it was great kind of like a break up i found the things I'd let her borrow on my bed and i thought she'd finally gotten the point that I'd given up on her... No though she came in a few minutes later talking about the car she'd wrecked. When she left she told us we needed to go to bed too... it was only 12 and she's not our mother anyway she's 17. It wouldn't surprise me if she had a couple kids though. See my life went from perfect under control to I'm standing on the edge of a cliff under control for me again.

i think i'm getting used to this under control though. I can get used to anything after all it's like Daddy says i'm a fighter like him and what doesn't kill us will make us stronger. I'll never quit anything no matter what!


Some people might say i should quit a few things i do but i don't think there's anything wrong with what i do so they should keep their mouths shut!

Computer Science

It's the most stupid thing ever created. I mean i really appreciate the people that can do it but for everybody else join the club of us illiterates that can't and don't make us take the stupid class. Leave it open for people who have a chance or at least want to know how to program computers. For the rest of us let us continue to use our magical screens and take it to those magicians when it breaks. There's no reason for this to be a required class it has no bearing on whether i can type or do anything else in any other field besides computer programming or if it has a bearing and we don't want to learn it guess what... we'll change majors and career fields or suddenly want to learn. That's how i see things and i don't think any amount of talking is going to change that.

dealing

I'm learning to deal with slutty friends and ex's that i'm not sure should stay in the past. The problem with it then? THe slutty friends can't keep their paws off my ex and i'm not even mad at him. I'm ticked at her though. I mean at least he had had the decesency to tell me that he wasn't going to listen but she just dolzl ms