Life sometimes just Sux

So today i found my classes today and then the guys showed us around campus having fun. One of them was cute in the nerdy way. You know the way that you just knew if you could get him out from underneath his glasses he'd be cute and everybody would see it. Anyway that wasn't the point. The point was that today all in all was a pretty good day except for the fact that i had to hide that i was feeling like crap the entire time. I don't know how I'm going to do this. My head is constantly pounding and my stomach is messing up more than ever. My back hurts too from climbing the hills it usually hurts though and so it's just a progression. I know i sound like I'm just venting but i really just have no idea how I'm going to be able to handle this physically. I mean emotionally I'm doing perfectly I'm making friends I'm forcing myself to still leave the room and get outside and everything but it just keeps getting worse and worse like it has been for the past month. i didn't want to tell Mom because she'd tell me to stay home but maybe i should of because it might have been the right move the way i feel. I can't go home though I've worked my whole life for this one opportunity I'm not throwing it away I'll stay even if it kills me. The doctors can't fix and neither can home. I just wish i still had my sis right here beside me because she's been through this before and understands these thoughts and could help me understand them myself a little more. She's always been there and i need her here when i feel like this.