Just give in?

Just give in the voice says inside my head. They'll never know. It'll be between the two of us just like it used to be. Nobody found out then. It made us both feel better. We could function. We slept at night. There weren't as many headaches. Just give in. It's easier.

Don't give in. Another voice chants. We don't take the easy way. Think of all the hurt it could do in the long run.

Think of how much better you'll look. The first voice interrupts.

It's not us.

We could just do it until we weren't fat anymore. I start to compromise with the voices.

It won't stop there. The second voice reminds me. It never stops there it doesn't stop until somebody starts to narc.

Remember how easy it used to be to get away from everything? The first voice asks softly like it was a comfort and I feel a pain as the want becomes even more.

Don't do this... the second voice begs

Just to get everything to go away... the first voice reminds me at the same time as their voices fade away.

What will i do? It's always the question I'm left with.